Monday, January 5, 2015
Stress
When my dad comes home, I have to be careful and I leave a noisemaker on in my room. I just feel stressed around people sometimes.. My dad always seems on guard to knock me down. He thought of something severe today. It's hopeless, my passion for Phantom and the fact I accidentally thought something when provoked, trying to ignore stuff.
Want Kids?
I am waiting til 40, it's a good age to me.
If not for you, then just know the internet makes everything available and you can live at home with your kids. There's not much out there, otherwise.
I was worried about babysitting and daycare, like when I go to the movies. It seems like it should work out. It's what you do. What do we have to offer kids today? These young people having kids? The parent needs to be occupied in working. Daycare could be a nice places for babies to be. It could make them smarter in some ways.... Hey, if you can raise a kid, then okay.
If not for you, then just know the internet makes everything available and you can live at home with your kids. There's not much out there, otherwise.
I was worried about babysitting and daycare, like when I go to the movies. It seems like it should work out. It's what you do. What do we have to offer kids today? These young people having kids? The parent needs to be occupied in working. Daycare could be a nice places for babies to be. It could make them smarter in some ways.... Hey, if you can raise a kid, then okay.
A Calculation of 1
Why do people assume that what someone really wants is something that is inhuman, like 1 person to 1 person rather than a lotta people???? I am getting annoyed. Annoyed at the idea.
The 411
It's people staring at people I like who are talking to me .. making judgements and eying that they are mean to me. That they have to be by them. Who, what.. well, it is happening in a multiple # greater than 1. It's just the report. My opinion? Obviously that it could lead to real troubles. You think there aren't any real troubles now. I'm not talking back, but this is what is gonna unfortunately take place.
Honestly
The tongue thing? No, it was not a problem before. It went away, but I can recall on it. I dunno, I don't dream about touching others's tongues for a reason. He was kinda doing it in a freaky way. It's like he finds me an attractive female. He keeps looking at me. It's nice, but he's also always mad at me.
I bet they want me to look at my mom like he looks at me. So, my dad made me fat? I wasn't that fat, was I? Lotta people are overweight and fine as people. He might be nice to others, IMO. Sometimes, I don't get what he wants, like he has nothing to say. It might be because of the Native American indian.. :(
Well, sorry, I wanted to report it not be mean about it. I don't really think I like touching others's tongues. I just can't see that happening with me, unless I did get married by 40 and my husband did it to me but not in a way I didn't like.
I don't know the concrete answer, maybe it's funny. A ha ha ha. Lighten up, C. If it stayed irritating and never went away or happened often, I guess the irritating part is something you can safely say you need to weed. People just don't face reality.
I bet they want me to look at my mom like he looks at me. So, my dad made me fat? I wasn't that fat, was I? Lotta people are overweight and fine as people. He might be nice to others, IMO. Sometimes, I don't get what he wants, like he has nothing to say. It might be because of the Native American indian.. :(
Well, sorry, I wanted to report it not be mean about it. I don't really think I like touching others's tongues. I just can't see that happening with me, unless I did get married by 40 and my husband did it to me but not in a way I didn't like.
I don't know the concrete answer, maybe it's funny. A ha ha ha. Lighten up, C. If it stayed irritating and never went away or happened often, I guess the irritating part is something you can safely say you need to weed. People just don't face reality.
Sparkle
Move to Orlando, and you'll see I don't get treated like one of them when it comes to being perfect. It's my race.
Wanting Bad Things? as an Excuse
Why do people keep looking at me like I want bad things racially, like I should be ashamed I follow people like Josh Groban?
Strange
I don't like how I get secret messages on IMDb. I just have to think I get them sometimes. It just seems dangerous, a dangerous start. I mean like experiment messages. It might be fun, but I really feel like I'm looked at like I'm something I'm not.
Problem
I even said checking out I didn't know if I should get the dessert. My dad acted all pushy like I had to eat it.
I feel big now.. I used to be skinny. Maybe, this time, I'll make it.
I feel big now.. I used to be skinny. Maybe, this time, I'll make it.
Why?
cuz I'm not.. Fine, say it, I'm not! I wanna be left alone so I can succeed in this world. Is that something you find you should make fun of in people?
I know..
..it's all because of seeing Phantom the same day. They think it was really bad, but you all stressed me out. I wanted to be left alone.
I'm serious.
This is bothering me. These people are all so mean to me. I don't have anything very physical to do. I jog and walk all the time. I sleep.
These people are acting meanly/crazily/whatever, since I thought, "Leave me alone," around an Asian lady. I can think that. I can even say that, in general. I didn't mean to get that message across! I don't mean it, now, that I can think.
These people are acting meanly/crazily/whatever, since I thought, "Leave me alone," around an Asian lady. I can think that. I can even say that, in general. I didn't mean to get that message across! I don't mean it, now, that I can think.
Distraught
I don't want to sit here and feel for my dad putting his tongue in my mouth. He kept smacking his lips annoyingly and following me being upset.
Who else has to do this? It might seem like a toy to anyone else, but it's something that irritates me, to constantly be bothered in private ever since moving to Orlando permanently. You'd imagine, something else would happen, but I'm just posting about it and wondering if anyone knows .. it's not!
My privacy goes in a cycle. I just get paid attention to too much *sob* by people when I think that I don't like them! I moved back home because I thought I was ripped off my family.
Also, I noticed I jokingly said *sob* and I feel people are making things up about behavior and having non-Southern blood. Like, it is not inappropriate to go thru things. To say things that express dependency in some fashion.
I do not mean anyone any harm! I am not an internet psycho!
(Insert: Why do you think I am talking to certain people? What if I said I wasn't?.. I think I was here to give a report. Just to let you know about my day and real day-to-day .. "things.." I gotta post something if I'm gonna post. So, I just post and talk in general, hopefully, or whatever is generally going ons..)
Who else gets called Asian? I don't wanna be what Asian is.. who would? I don't wanna be a lotta things. I just wanna know the answer. I don't play around and make up some weird thing. I say hi to Asians. I mean, people keep bothering me about Asian stuff. I wanna live! I don't do nothing! People all know I'm Asian, now, for no reason! There is no reason I should look more Asian now. It's been after Tim Burton and Johnny Depp were famous. You know, some people don't do this. It's just wrong. I was gonna say more, but I forget. I'm not trying to bite at anyone. I passed the test. Okay. Why are people bothering me? They keep calling me stuff. My life is a horror. I feel so irritated at anything a person does. I'm not crying out. I'm complaining. I'm telling you how I feel. My head feels like stressed and out of focus. There's a constant beating that went on in there. Some people I know find this interesting. I guess you all think you're whiter than me and I'm shamed to say this, but you're not! Do you know anyone from another race who never lusted after their race? I am not lusting over my race!
Who else has to do this? It might seem like a toy to anyone else, but it's something that irritates me, to constantly be bothered in private ever since moving to Orlando permanently. You'd imagine, something else would happen, but I'm just posting about it and wondering if anyone knows .. it's not!
My privacy goes in a cycle. I just get paid attention to too much *sob* by people when I think that I don't like them! I moved back home because I thought I was ripped off my family.
Also, I noticed I jokingly said *sob* and I feel people are making things up about behavior and having non-Southern blood. Like, it is not inappropriate to go thru things. To say things that express dependency in some fashion.
I do not mean anyone any harm! I am not an internet psycho!
(Insert: Why do you think I am talking to certain people? What if I said I wasn't?.. I think I was here to give a report. Just to let you know about my day and real day-to-day .. "things.." I gotta post something if I'm gonna post. So, I just post and talk in general, hopefully, or whatever is generally going ons..)
Who else gets called Asian? I don't wanna be what Asian is.. who would? I don't wanna be a lotta things. I just wanna know the answer. I don't play around and make up some weird thing. I say hi to Asians. I mean, people keep bothering me about Asian stuff. I wanna live! I don't do nothing! People all know I'm Asian, now, for no reason! There is no reason I should look more Asian now. It's been after Tim Burton and Johnny Depp were famous. You know, some people don't do this. It's just wrong. I was gonna say more, but I forget. I'm not trying to bite at anyone. I passed the test. Okay. Why are people bothering me? They keep calling me stuff. My life is a horror. I feel so irritated at anything a person does. I'm not crying out. I'm complaining. I'm telling you how I feel. My head feels like stressed and out of focus. There's a constant beating that went on in there. Some people I know find this interesting. I guess you all think you're whiter than me and I'm shamed to say this, but you're not! Do you know anyone from another race who never lusted after their race? I am not lusting over my race!
There's probably nothing left in the world.
Learning to say no without knowing is all you're doing.
I am with the young parents who had kids, not the older people who think they had them in spite. They are secretly mean to them.
Ow
Someone drove by with hatred, and I feel my back has turns on it. Now, I'm just tired, like when I slipped in the theater in the audience after using the bathroom during Mary Poppins 1-2 years ago. My ankle, when I walk.
Why is everyone against me and won't leave me alone? I've been called lots of things, and I don't call anyone anything and therefore should be respected. It wasn't like this before is about all I have to say now. Before Tim Burton and Johnny Depp became famous. Yea, everyone went crazy and thought they were their spitting image or posed as though that were so. This is not the new dedication and way of life. I feel these people experimenting on me are wasting time with me.
Why is everyone against me and won't leave me alone? I've been called lots of things, and I don't call anyone anything and therefore should be respected. It wasn't like this before is about all I have to say now. Before Tim Burton and Johnny Depp became famous. Yea, everyone went crazy and thought they were their spitting image or posed as though that were so. This is not the new dedication and way of life. I feel these people experimenting on me are wasting time with me.
Argh!
I looked thru every old picture in 1 room, and I can't seem to find a couple things.
I walked, forgot to jog. I feel a bit bored and messy. I did some laundry, ironed and am washing stuff I can tumble dry. I've gotta iron again, hopefully tomorrow, and then I might have 2 loads of things to hang up. I like wearing tight pants and tight spaghetti straps.
Now.. I guess I'll post/sing. I could work on my books! and script book.
I wanna go to school. I wonder if the medicine is making me tired. I wonder if I should move to a campus. It's easier when your parents can drive you stuff and go to the grocery store on weekends. I wish I was a big driver. I just don't go around much other than the movies. I do drive sometimes with my dad still. At least, I can work on some stuff myself. I wonder if the 3 books and CD are my ticket to making money. I was hoping I could sell the stuff physically in stores, but maybe not.. I wonder how I'll get any business. My 1st book is 50 pages on personality. Each page is a different topic, "easy as pie"/"a piece of cake," right? I'll sell it for like $7.99, I originally thought. It'll just be a paperback. It seems more like a magazine. Like, remember the magazines for teens with quizzes and stuff and probably "hot" advice? So far, most of it is complaining about the other personality books I've gone thru to different extents.. It's a bit campy, itself, too, but much worse. I address smart things, but people will calculate what I really did and say something else.
Well, I feel more like working on the personality book.
I walked, forgot to jog. I feel a bit bored and messy. I did some laundry, ironed and am washing stuff I can tumble dry. I've gotta iron again, hopefully tomorrow, and then I might have 2 loads of things to hang up. I like wearing tight pants and tight spaghetti straps.
Now.. I guess I'll post/sing. I could work on my books! and script book.
I wanna go to school. I wonder if the medicine is making me tired. I wonder if I should move to a campus. It's easier when your parents can drive you stuff and go to the grocery store on weekends. I wish I was a big driver. I just don't go around much other than the movies. I do drive sometimes with my dad still. At least, I can work on some stuff myself. I wonder if the 3 books and CD are my ticket to making money. I was hoping I could sell the stuff physically in stores, but maybe not.. I wonder how I'll get any business. My 1st book is 50 pages on personality. Each page is a different topic, "easy as pie"/"a piece of cake," right? I'll sell it for like $7.99, I originally thought. It'll just be a paperback. It seems more like a magazine. Like, remember the magazines for teens with quizzes and stuff and probably "hot" advice? So far, most of it is complaining about the other personality books I've gone thru to different extents.. It's a bit campy, itself, too, but much worse. I address smart things, but people will calculate what I really did and say something else.
Well, I feel more like working on the personality book.
I just found
people don't hate fair mixed race people. They just wanna act obnoxious and maybe discriminate their opportunity for existence for other "personal" reasons that exist where you can chose to hate someone..
Human Dolphin Hybrids
link
Project Camelot
...
"In a stunning revelation, he describes his role in military abductions, working alongside non-human entities (greys) taking targets, (male and female) from their homes late at night to underground bases for experimentation and programming. He talks about the retrieval of renegade agents, where the programming had malfunctioned. Flying in a TR-3B, the target was picked up, reprogrammed and replaced back in their homes without the neighbors, occupants of the home, or even dogs being aware."
Picture of Dolphin Embryo
Human and Dolphin Embryo
Project Camelot
...
"In a stunning revelation, he describes his role in military abductions, working alongside non-human entities (greys) taking targets, (male and female) from their homes late at night to underground bases for experimentation and programming. He talks about the retrieval of renegade agents, where the programming had malfunctioned. Flying in a TR-3B, the target was picked up, reprogrammed and replaced back in their homes without the neighbors, occupants of the home, or even dogs being aware."
Picture of Dolphin Embryo
Human and Dolphin Embryo
Mixed Race
link
If humans and apes/chimps mixed, if the mom were white the baby would be huge and if the dad were white the children would be small. The child would die quickly after existing.
I rented a video from Netflix in 2010/2011, and it was about couples having babies, at least 2 examples of mixed heritages. 1 was an Asian dad and Latino mom. The daughter just looked Asian. I've seen lotta other mixed race pictures of people who are young adults like me stretching and playing with their given faces. I think you could look white both ways. People with a colored dad or lotta strength have a lotta strength. It seems that the child is from the dad, and the care is from the mom, then. I kinda liked the idea of being like the mom as far as genetics go. It's funny I just look white. I think my mom made me look mixed. I wanted to be like my mom maybe and alter my features to at least be like my dad's race. I don't seem to have a fighting chance at claiming an identity cuz no one knows where what came from and what is what they what they most have an interest in.
If humans and apes/chimps mixed, if the mom were white the baby would be huge and if the dad were white the children would be small. The child would die quickly after existing.
I rented a video from Netflix in 2010/2011, and it was about couples having babies, at least 2 examples of mixed heritages. 1 was an Asian dad and Latino mom. The daughter just looked Asian. I've seen lotta other mixed race pictures of people who are young adults like me stretching and playing with their given faces. I think you could look white both ways. People with a colored dad or lotta strength have a lotta strength. It seems that the child is from the dad, and the care is from the mom, then. I kinda liked the idea of being like the mom as far as genetics go. It's funny I just look white. I think my mom made me look mixed. I wanted to be like my mom maybe and alter my features to at least be like my dad's race. I don't seem to have a fighting chance at claiming an identity cuz no one knows where what came from and what is what they what they most have an interest in.
Up
I took a nap and woke up in between, no sock on, got cold, on the sofa in my room. I was still tired but wanted up. I may walk and shower.. maybe another nap.
I had pecan delights, hot dog, fatless burger my dad got, and OJ.
I had pecan delights, hot dog, fatless burger my dad got, and OJ.
Mermaids may exist, but are primates human?
I read that a dolphin and human could exist for a life of development at like 1 second.
What do you think of "obese" people and skinny special people?
Special skinny people?
Some fat guys hold to it.
Girls make it a glamorous statement..
I thought obese people have something to say. People like some people skinny and others maybe don't care. I was wondering that wouldn't work out with jealousy and life not being fair. I mean, you see teenagers, I was thinking, and lotta them still "tiny." I read body mass increases with age but that when you're fat it's easy to get fatter and fatter than it was before.
I feel I've gotten to a point where I'm too big. I was trying to be big. Now tall. I must admit, some skinny people seem like animals, kinda simple. Why? They don't really eat right? Nothing for the brain? Just live on chips when you're hungry?
Some fat guys hold to it.
Girls make it a glamorous statement..
I thought obese people have something to say. People like some people skinny and others maybe don't care. I was wondering that wouldn't work out with jealousy and life not being fair. I mean, you see teenagers, I was thinking, and lotta them still "tiny." I read body mass increases with age but that when you're fat it's easy to get fatter and fatter than it was before.
I feel I've gotten to a point where I'm too big. I was trying to be big. Now tall. I must admit, some skinny people seem like animals, kinda simple. Why? They don't really eat right? Nothing for the brain? Just live on chips when you're hungry?
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