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Thursday, January 8, 2015
Ellen
The guy was really nice.
So was the girl!
Ellen seems okay in some ways. I guess she is just back from the vacation. I hope things concerning her calm down some.
So was the girl!
Ellen seems okay in some ways. I guess she is just back from the vacation. I hope things concerning her calm down some.
Problem
My heart is having troubles. I suffer when I eat. These people need to be in their places, I think. They are acting funnily.
Interesting Topic
There's a part of me, tho Ellen is #1 IMO, that says Dr. Phil is more desirable and fun. I'm more eager to see what he does right now. After him is Chris Mann the Phantom.
Problems
I talked to my brother, and they really set something up about my future possible daughter, like nothing's there, what I know about hair?
And he moved something a little when I thought of someone and then dropped it. That's that ADD.
And he moved something a little when I thought of someone and then dropped it. That's that ADD.
Problem
They made a word captcha that said any future children would be like pooh. Supposedly from that person. They keep playing around like that. Like I did something. They cannot see the whole picture and cannot fix what is past.
Look, you got something on me?
Watchu got? You're incredibly rude, evil, unkind, and a backstabber. So what if the N word came to mind? Bother you about yourself?
Problems
My mom did something that annoyed me. The N word came to mind about someone. She acted like my daughter would be empty, like nothing I dreamed, more like the problems I had. She acted like that person said all those things while claiming it could slip her mind.
Wednesday, January 7, 2015
Problem
So much has just happened, but so little.. so much exaggerated. I feel stimulated now. They keep playing around with me. Then, sometimes they claim they didn't do it.
Being Used
I just feel a certain attitude pervading the air being encouraged. People wanna rub all over me for non reason. They think there's something to get back at with me and just with me. I'm more of a fact and physical person than someone who thinks like a balloon. Well, maybe my head is a balloon. I don't just shoot sparks in the sky. I say, okay what does this person look like? What do I look like to them? There's a start. What's going on, I ask. Do I just wanna be told I'm no good basically and say that it has to do with something that's not good to do with it? If someone should spend some time excelling, it's not the time to be cheap. Why not leave them be? Being precautious. Yea, why is telling me part of the fun? I shouldn't trust people. I already said I didn't, but they're like that dog in Dr. Doolittle that jumps in the air. I mean no harm. I just know people are like not accepting what I post when it's kind. They just say oh but you got upset at something that was for me. No, I didn't. I got upset myself and maybe of something or someone else. I just knew that the message was laced with laughter and pressure. I want to talk it out to get help, not to attack.
Posts
I know how Louisianians work.
They just want to be the pros at things, like people in Kentucky. They put on a facade. They are laid back workers.. They come up to you and say something notorious. No heart. Mine has been dissed. They then turn on like they are Mr. Positive. Like Pennsylvania, the threat is a bunch of bologna. Why do I care to post this? Because it happens. It's funny to notice. I'm part Louisianian..
How People Roll
Lotta people act like they will actually do something, anything, to improve the world or your life but lack the skill.
Why I'm Annoyed
I get secret messages. They think I'm a male chauvinistic "pig."
I don't know where these things come from. Do they just wanna tell me I'm ugly? These people are messed up. Am I ugly compared to Dr. Phil?
Nevermind how I got here. I just got reminded of Louisianians. The worst is still yet to come. They think because I thought this with something else it will. Wow, what a big responsibility. I'm here on my blog. It should be pretty clear what's not going on with me. I don't wanna think about messages that mean nothing, that mean no harm.
They just want to be the pros at things, like people in Kentucky. They put on a facade. They are laid back workers.. They come up to you and say something notorious. No heart. Mine has been dissed. They then turn on like they are Mr. Positive. Like Pennsylvania, the threat is a bunch of bologna. Why do I care to post this? Because it happens. It's funny to notice. I'm part Louisianian..
How People Roll
Lotta people act like they will actually do something, anything, to improve the world or your life but lack the skill.
Why I'm Annoyed
I get secret messages. They think I'm a male chauvinistic "pig."
I don't know where these things come from. Do they just wanna tell me I'm ugly? These people are messed up. Am I ugly compared to Dr. Phil?
Nevermind how I got here. I just got reminded of Louisianians. The worst is still yet to come. They think because I thought this with something else it will. Wow, what a big responsibility. I'm here on my blog. It should be pretty clear what's not going on with me. I don't wanna think about messages that mean nothing, that mean no harm.
When Racism Exists
When people tell an Asian who they are and that it's bad racially.
When you tell someone they have to be a certain way if they are being good, but if they're bad they just say they're lame. Something like that, I forget.
When you tell someone they have to be a certain way if they are being good, but if they're bad they just say they're lame. Something like that, I forget.
Italians and Jews
*beep*
I gave up myself for this race!
And they just tell me what I am? I do not want to be the idea that Asians are ugly. I do not want to be limited to think Asian. I know what I do. There are some questions.
I don't understand. I have Jew and Swiss. I'm just not like that I know of 50% Jewish.
So, cross Italy off the list, along with NY.
There's no excuse. }:]
I gave up myself for this race!
And they just tell me what I am? I do not want to be the idea that Asians are ugly. I do not want to be limited to think Asian. I know what I do. There are some questions.
I don't understand. I have Jew and Swiss. I'm just not like that I know of 50% Jewish.
So, cross Italy off the list, along with NY.
There's no excuse. }:]
I hear an Italian joke coming on..
..much like another joke
That we all just ditched our lives and wanted to be like this. I cannot believe the dating sites. They're worse than Facebook.
I guess someone's yodelin' got the best of us somehow or another.
That we all just ditched our lives and wanted to be like this. I cannot believe the dating sites. They're worse than Facebook.
I guess someone's yodelin' got the best of us somehow or another.
A "close retation"
reminded me of my girl cousin.. rambunctious all growing up and now still the same person
now she's not even a part of my family and comes up as an old girl bestie
Rambunctious is an okay word to use in what situation is in my mind. Don't feel like elaborating.
now she's not even a part of my family and comes up as an old girl bestie
Rambunctious is an okay word to use in what situation is in my mind. Don't feel like elaborating.
So..
..is it better to flamboyantly put your race out there like you gotta have something over another race when everyone else is sound?
***
The idea that my dad should have some possessive command over me all of a sudden at age 28 when I'm so careful to be good most all of the time. This is getting sick. There is closure, but I don't think it's over. Yes, um, people are putting things in my face that I already did what I was supposed to with it. I don't mean to bring anything up to certain people but to a general audience that might know something.
.."I think
I'm gonna die if I eat another burger or dog, my heart. I'm on pills. I wasn't fond of them this morning after the 2 pop-tarts.
Why treat me like I'm crazy to start?
Sorry I was rambunctious and lost it thinking of being bugged by someone every day. It's not that I am bugged by the person but by what happens when I think about my somewhat innocent somewhat not reaction to what people say that's insulting and throw someone in the topic, like really fast like I can't accept it. I'll grow up. I'll try to keep ignoring it again. It's so hard. They dig into me here. They literally affect my reactions at constant sometimes. I didn't even say anything bad about anyone themselves but the digging in so it's hard to ignore or something. Like all digging up in me, like I need a lot of time with no contact with real people. People tend to ignore my needs. I'll try to respect others and not create a problem that affects others. I didn't mean anything to begin with.
OK
Why do you need me to move out of the way so much if you're so great? Why do only you not need a reason to be the season?
Problems
I was watching Dr. Phil with my parents eating, and they kept acting all mean with insults I can't even remember. The light is starting to smear in my vision. I just feel people are all hating on me. Why is everything about this 1 girl, like she got everything I was earning/deserving.
We've tracked down who helps and who doesn't. They are acting like they didn't do it. They started it. So, it's someone lying. They know who they are.
What's wrong exactly? People, my parents, are being mean to me. You think saying someone is getting attention couldn't possibly say anything. Well, a lotta things are being said. Things I can't recall and don't know what to pick. They're calling me curse words in secret, like the way they make sounds. People here don't all know what they're doing nor care. It's my dad that's the complicated problem. Supposedly, I am nothing now. Because of this person.
We've tracked down who helps and who doesn't. They are acting like they didn't do it. They started it. So, it's someone lying. They know who they are.
What's wrong exactly? People, my parents, are being mean to me. You think saying someone is getting attention couldn't possibly say anything. Well, a lotta things are being said. Things I can't recall and don't know what to pick. They're calling me curse words in secret, like the way they make sounds. People here don't all know what they're doing nor care. It's my dad that's the complicated problem. Supposedly, I am nothing now. Because of this person.
Reportable
Sometimes, it's just too much. I do the right thing. It's like we can't trust anyone accomplished or they fell for a trap. They wouldn't agree with that I don't believe that's what happened. It's when I go on the street or hear my parents. People act like anyone I thought was good is bad and lotta them are. I just heard a commercial and know I'm right and other people are wrong. What is possibly wrong? You hold a grudge, nothing I can do about it.
Something Too Funny Not to Post
Honestly..
They are rubbing in to certain people that if something happened to me that they get it when they didn't get it but just rub insults against me in rather than letting them have some experience. It's too bad, all these people who aren't even at stake in their reputation get the same symptoms.. It's their fault they are where they are now and try to rub in things they shouldn't rub to other kinds of people.
They are rubbing in to certain people that if something happened to me that they get it when they didn't get it but just rub insults against me in rather than letting them have some experience. It's too bad, all these people who aren't even at stake in their reputation get the same symptoms.. It's their fault they are where they are now and try to rub in things they shouldn't rub to other kinds of people.
The Price Is Right
An attractive white girl looked at a black lady, and the black lady was not bad to her like always to me.
I'll ho-!!!
Lotta people moved down over to the oldest continuing city in the US and 2nd oldest. It's in NE FL. I moved up but lived in the big city above it right before that.
Introverted Brunettes
What do you think of shy girls with black hair saying other people are wrong in a suggestive way, like normal people who aren't good enough?
Food I Ate
the rest of the burger, some fettucini alfredo that almost burned and was dry, not sure why, and fruit chews (sees bubble of imagination pop of everyone's childhood born in the 1980s at the sound of fruit chews)
Excited
Everyone is either appealing or attractive in some way more than someone else!! Isn't that exciting?
These people wanted me to not know how to accept life.
These people wanted me to not know how to accept life.
Think Think Think
Only really cool people are mean to me. Most people agree against it with me, but sometimes they don't, like today, at 1st almost every car that passed me.
I should be happy, but I end up reacting. I feel that people hate me cuza how other people I'm related to, such as my parents, are in some way or that they want to do away with me, instead. Like I said, I react and it's hard to figure out what's going on. I just know it didn't happen before, "like I know I did something." Why do people believe one little mistake means you can mistreat them? Couldn't that be the same as the original mistake?
My only thing right now is being punished. Thing that perturbs me. Why are people acting like they didn't just say someone is better than me? Why are all the cool people following along with this? Why are people ratting me out, like I can't make myself cool?
I admitted there are people above and below, but lotta people are below thinking they're above cuza race.
I should be happy, but I end up reacting. I feel that people hate me cuza how other people I'm related to, such as my parents, are in some way or that they want to do away with me, instead. Like I said, I react and it's hard to figure out what's going on. I just know it didn't happen before, "like I know I did something." Why do people believe one little mistake means you can mistreat them? Couldn't that be the same as the original mistake?
My only thing right now is being punished. Thing that perturbs me. Why are people acting like they didn't just say someone is better than me? Why are all the cool people following along with this? Why are people ratting me out, like I can't make myself cool?
I admitted there are people above and below, but lotta people are below thinking they're above cuza race.
Apology and/or Explanation
I asked if Bella was a wannabe seductress on Twitter. Guess it was too shattering a question to take. Go ahead, you deserve to try to outdo me now, right? (No.) I saw a picture of her mom looking very seducing, and I noticed that Bella seems to hold grudges. So, I didn't intend to create the trouble. All I said was like, "Look at the wannabe seductress." She always seems special among friends, and mine dumped me and stuff. I'm the same kind of person as her, tho, if you know what I mean. Different, called or look cute. Different as in neat and classy in some way.
I don't know why you'd draw something bad from that. Seems Twitter's too short and it's hard to respond to that for some reason. I would talk about someone like that, but I told it to her face concisely.
I don't know why you'd draw something bad from that. Seems Twitter's too short and it's hard to respond to that for some reason. I would talk about someone like that, but I told it to her face concisely.
Dating
The younger guys match me more, but I want a guy who's at least 28 1/2 like me, technically older. I won't bug the younger guys.
In Case
I wanted kids by 40, but I figured I'd need to start dating now. I haven't found anyone compatible who likes me, yet. Maybe, this grows with seasoning. It's a good place for my money to have gone. I found what eHarmony was. OkCupid has it where you can see all the people and the others don't show enough. Also, you take a test and can't change the answers. I was rejected the 1st time.
I wasn't even sure I wanted a family. I just wanna be safe. I could always divorce and put the kids in boarding school. But why? I just meant I thought a single life would be nice. I don't even know why I want children because I feel greedy like they're just an experiment to see if their life is better than mine. I know what I know.
I wasn't even sure I wanted a family. I just wanna be safe. I could always divorce and put the kids in boarding school. But why? I just meant I thought a single life would be nice. I don't even know why I want children because I feel greedy like they're just an experiment to see if their life is better than mine. I know what I know.
Kids
I want to have a boy 1st and then a girl. I wanted to play football with the boy, as well as baseball. I figure if he has a dad, they'd play basketball.
The girl I will put in ballet as an infant, Mommy and me, and singing ASAP, which might be with me and then lessons maybe by 2 or 3.
Piano is too much for now. Our kids can't have it all.
I will have the boy in football and baseball ASAP. The girl.. I forget. Oh yes, a major ballet company/school. I guess I will try to get her singing lessons up to an hour ASAP. A nearby college might also have a good program.
So, I'm 28, and it would be neat to have kids in my 20s. I'm gonna look at Norway, too, still, at least for the experience. The other boy from Norway self-deleted.
The girl I will put in ballet as an infant, Mommy and me, and singing ASAP, which might be with me and then lessons maybe by 2 or 3.
Piano is too much for now. Our kids can't have it all.
I will have the boy in football and baseball ASAP. The girl.. I forget. Oh yes, a major ballet company/school. I guess I will try to get her singing lessons up to an hour ASAP. A nearby college might also have a good program.
So, I'm 28, and it would be neat to have kids in my 20s. I'm gonna look at Norway, too, still, at least for the experience. The other boy from Norway self-deleted.
Report
Well, I feel I just have to disregard and am even told to forget it about some things.
Lotta people are mean to me just for kicks, tho. They say I did something if I try to disdain it. I just feel really tacky.
How I Feel
I feel that it's silly to lose things in people just because you messed up on thinking of something under pressure. No one gives me time alone, and I am not taken step by step thru anything that means anything. I get attacked and pretty much attacked more if I attack back.
I figured that other people would own the underworld if they lost a person to every mistake they made.
I want back to be a normal person, not someone tested to mess up at some point in one's own life. I could only move on and have been thinking about children..
Lotta people are mean to me just for kicks, tho. They say I did something if I try to disdain it. I just feel really tacky.
How I Feel
I feel that it's silly to lose things in people just because you messed up on thinking of something under pressure. No one gives me time alone, and I am not taken step by step thru anything that means anything. I get attacked and pretty much attacked more if I attack back.
I figured that other people would own the underworld if they lost a person to every mistake they made.
I want back to be a normal person, not someone tested to mess up at some point in one's own life. I could only move on and have been thinking about children..
What I'm Doing
drying a bunch of clothes
have to wait for the iron in my parents's bedroom
washing my hat so I can take a picture of me and post it online
have to wait for the iron in my parents's bedroom
washing my hat so I can take a picture of me and post it online
Ready
I actually got dressed and put on makeup. I walked and showered 1st. Breakfast was 2 chocolatey Pop-Tarts, a hot dog, and part of a hamburger.
Tuesday, January 6, 2015
Problem
They keep making noises and it's irritating my head, like someone else did. My brain is like bubbling up. They think it's okay if they are mean to me. They even just talked back to that.
I can't trust anyone. This was a lie.
I can't trust anyone. This was a lie.
Funning
Why is certain person spreading out things about me in a derogatory manner, like a rumor?
Is there anything wrong that you would punish me for this very post here? ={ What exactly does anyone wan'it to say? I just noticed that I didn't do anything to even be made fun of. =0 Is this all behind-my-back, not really what it looks like? It does seem very tacky under it all. I must admit. Why? For abstract reasons and that it's a mislabeled/mishandled fact. :| See, I explain myself and mean no harm. Sorry, I bet you'll act like your other side now and be nice and make me feel bad for saying this.
I will not respect this person for being so mean and acting like they can judge people. I am being bombarded with insults in my room, little noises that sound like talking somehow. They also threatened me with something very bad..
I think they did this so I had to put the experiment label on this.
Is there anything wrong that you would punish me for this very post here? ={ What exactly does anyone wan'it to say? I just noticed that I didn't do anything to even be made fun of. =0 Is this all behind-my-back, not really what it looks like? It does seem very tacky under it all. I must admit. Why? For abstract reasons and that it's a mislabeled/mishandled fact. :| See, I explain myself and mean no harm. Sorry, I bet you'll act like your other side now and be nice and make me feel bad for saying this.
I will not respect this person for being so mean and acting like they can judge people. I am being bombarded with insults in my room, little noises that sound like talking somehow. They also threatened me with something very bad..
I think they did this so I had to put the experiment label on this.
Supper
bigger salad (lettuce head, broccoli, carrots, olives, black olives, oil)
yek the spaghetti sauce tastes like soup
yek the spaghetti sauce tastes like soup
Crazy
This person is like a demon coming back at me if I write down something they did, playing around like a minkey. I don't like wasting my time with a feeling because they can control what goes on on my computer. I know what the message says.
How to Fix Yourself
When I was young, I felt like I went crazy in a social environment, struggling I guess to learn.
Something on TV
Wounded Warrior
That's something good to notice, that company. I hope they can use a computer with their SO and speaking what they type.
That's something good to notice, that company. I hope they can use a computer with their SO and speaking what they type.
Problem
They keep instilling upon me ways I don't wanna be. I found out watching TV. They don't push people into others. Like this other person.. They get to do it themselves and be free.
I feel a threat coming or being built, now, why is it like that?
What if it's not something I like and there to punish me? So, I guess everyone is lame. I like different people in different ways. This is not fullout okay. Is it? Or everyone is a phony. Can't find any people? If someone else messed up their life, why ruin it for a child? What about the other children who don't have to do this? Does that make sense? I just said someone's life might really be messed up or not to someone's liking more than most personally. I hope they get better, tho.
Why are people so threatening about thinking the truth? In general situations. Is this a new thing?
I feel a threat coming or being built, now, why is it like that?
What if it's not something I like and there to punish me? So, I guess everyone is lame. I like different people in different ways. This is not fullout okay. Is it? Or everyone is a phony. Can't find any people? If someone else messed up their life, why ruin it for a child? What about the other children who don't have to do this? Does that make sense? I just said someone's life might really be messed up or not to someone's liking more than most personally. I hope they get better, tho.
Why are people so threatening about thinking the truth? In general situations. Is this a new thing?
Someone lied.
They were too ashamed to admit what they were doing the 1st time the 2nd time around. They are watching to make sure it's about this 1 person all the time. They pretty much copy others/me and try to somehow knock us outta the game or the fact that there even comes a game that involves "their kind." It makes it hard for me to believe that sending such rambunctious messages would happen if they didn't set an example. I think it's all up in the air and an unfair punishment. If they don't enjoy it as game, they should get with the program LOL or not do it like that..
Nothing specific happened that I wish to report. I just sense this pervading the environment. I just wanted to post about it cuz I noticed it. It wasn't supposed to matter, but it's suggested it's a punishment.
They are irritating me about it, too, pretending it has to happen. Rubbing it in, playing around, distorting my perception and perhaps the environment and circumstance. It digs in and irritates me, different things in turn. I am a good person and I care about bad people. This should not happen to me.
Not sure what else to say. About something always happening to me to irritate me except that it does. I just say something, and for some reason they pop up.
So.. just saying. I don't want to get mad about it, too. I dunno why I said that. Cuz I don't wanna get mad. It's not why I post it.. Someone out there might read it and alter the world!
Nothing specific happened that I wish to report. I just sense this pervading the environment. I just wanted to post about it cuz I noticed it. It wasn't supposed to matter, but it's suggested it's a punishment.
They are irritating me about it, too, pretending it has to happen. Rubbing it in, playing around, distorting my perception and perhaps the environment and circumstance. It digs in and irritates me, different things in turn. I am a good person and I care about bad people. This should not happen to me.
Not sure what else to say. About something always happening to me to irritate me except that it does. I just say something, and for some reason they pop up.
So.. just saying. I don't want to get mad about it, too. I dunno why I said that. Cuz I don't wanna get mad. It's not why I post it.. Someone out there might read it and alter the world!
Website Update
Glitches
I find web address popups at the bottom of my bog when I read it or other sites on Google Chrome sometimes.
I find web address popups at the bottom of my bog when I read it or other sites on Google Chrome sometimes.
Is there a reason..
..someone keeps punishing me? Why the change? What a shame.. :( No offense.
Some people just like to take out the garbage 1st. It's an LA thing, too. Real LA-ers are nice, like me, at home.
I'm not trying to start anything. Tried to make this post short and sweet. Just reporting my feelings. I tend to experience reactions.
When people talk to me, they keep like digging into things that don't matter.
There's something peculiar about this post you may have noticed I don't mean.
Anyway, what I said really, ask anyone. I don't mean what the undertone said, in a way, if you caught the same undertone as I did. Sorry! Don't know how to .. operate on that.
Some people just like to take out the garbage 1st. It's an LA thing, too. Real LA-ers are nice, like me, at home.
I'm not trying to start anything. Tried to make this post short and sweet. Just reporting my feelings. I tend to experience reactions.
When people talk to me, they keep like digging into things that don't matter.
There's something peculiar about this post you may have noticed I don't mean.
Anyway, what I said really, ask anyone. I don't mean what the undertone said, in a way, if you caught the same undertone as I did. Sorry! Don't know how to .. operate on that.
Popping Up
It seems like people are popping up when I try to get away from them. I mean, like destroying fragile "things" in possibility.
I mean coming in and saying, "I'm involved." Which means.. weird messages over the whole long period of time. Things I don't get. Things that should be happier for them. I'm sorta stuck as a girl with a blog. They're stuck on Twitter.
I mean coming in and saying, "I'm involved." Which means.. weird messages over the whole long period of time. Things I don't get. Things that should be happier for them. I'm sorta stuck as a girl with a blog. They're stuck on Twitter.
Upset @ Gay Marriage in FL
Why is Ellen so friendly on the show but online sounds like she's hooting and hollering? Like saying nanny nanny boo boo I'm gay and you're not my wife but only I can be cool.
So, I guess..
..they are pulling more things on me since something. It made me sad it was affected by an accident. It's too much pressure to control everything in my head.
Bullying
Do you know about people who are wrong to bully you but try to convince you that they're right?
Problem
Now, they are having someone send me secret messages because of something they thought happened that was bad, but it was too much to control.
Idea
I don't have money now, but I wanna use a dating site to meet I guess guys. Not sure how to make just regular friends with other girls. I am ready to have my 2 kids now, 1 1/2 years, 1 right after the other, with natural chosing if it's a boy or girl.
Apology
Sorry I got so upset. I got upset other times, but sometimes it's not worth it to say. Probably was a waste of blog space. No harm in "talking it out."
Plan
I'm gonna try to meet people for fun @ eHarmony, maybe Norway, cuz I don't want all the boys to go gone. I just have to wait to pay. I'm 28. It's easy to talk to people, I think.
Problem
They keep making things like timed about my dad supposedly. I wanna be left alone in this regard. I'm sure it'll have to stop. I'll have to ignore these things.
Problem
So, they keep rubbing something in, these people observing me.
I don't know who said to do this, but my dad made my face feel like a hand. He was upset. They aren't upset at someone else for things.
They won't stop harassing me.
I don't know who said to do this, but my dad made my face feel like a hand. He was upset. They aren't upset at someone else for things.
They won't stop harassing me.
Toilet Not Working
You know, I get followed around with problems by someone. Did this start with someone else for some reason? How is that okay? I didn't do anything. You all keep acting like I'm bad. I said I'm not. What is going on? :( I know this is wrong, the person who usually does this. It doesn't mean nothing to me. You can't tell. This person is preventing me from being okay with other people. They even act like they caused plane crashes, etc., just to stimulate me.
Ew, someone talked about their face and I thought of discharge in my face! Is it cuz I dyed my hair gold cuz you think someone is mad cuza it? Why are people thinking they can observe and manipulate me?
Where is this going? What did I do? Nothing. Someone else/other people are doing this. Do you think it's just a coincidence? Whenever my brother visits, the toilet "broke" in a different way.
I'm just really sad and feel threatened for being upset. Why? I'm not doing anything. I'm just saying it upset me. I explained up there why, this person stalking me. Why do you need to offer a peace offering for oneself? I don't know if it will happen again. I did nothing! I just accidentally thought something on the way to Phantom, and now people are so mad. They look incredibly foolish, indeed.
If I did do something wrong, it was not on purpose. This seemed rather an odd situation.
Also, I don't like to look in the toilet. Sometimes, not even when I wipe myself.
This is another joke by someone to get me to put something on my blog to fight dramatically/jumpily.
Again, in closure, I am sad and reporting this because it upset me. I should just take it as nothing, but I feel that people are all being mean to me. Why are people all secretly acting like they know more about if I'm good or bad yet seem to not really know? About the person, well the person does things like that and seemed excited. It made me feel queasy. There is no explanation. What if I did that? There would be no explanation. I don't care what a certain person wants. I'm brushing it aside! Or violently fighting it!
They won't stop making suggestions to me and it like continues. Why? Or it really hits and I just don't know what to do. I get made fun of and don't feel like tackily forming a mad feeling. They just gave a sign again!
Also, something made my nose feel more dead and hard. What happened? Another thing I did by accident? It's not going away.
Why are people going in and being suggestive to me when I literally didn't do nor start anything?
Okay, anyway, I'm going off to eat, now.
Ew, someone talked about their face and I thought of discharge in my face! Is it cuz I dyed my hair gold cuz you think someone is mad cuza it? Why are people thinking they can observe and manipulate me?
Where is this going? What did I do? Nothing. Someone else/other people are doing this. Do you think it's just a coincidence? Whenever my brother visits, the toilet "broke" in a different way.
I'm just really sad and feel threatened for being upset. Why? I'm not doing anything. I'm just saying it upset me. I explained up there why, this person stalking me. Why do you need to offer a peace offering for oneself? I don't know if it will happen again. I did nothing! I just accidentally thought something on the way to Phantom, and now people are so mad. They look incredibly foolish, indeed.
If I did do something wrong, it was not on purpose. This seemed rather an odd situation.
Also, I don't like to look in the toilet. Sometimes, not even when I wipe myself.
This is another joke by someone to get me to put something on my blog to fight dramatically/jumpily.
Again, in closure, I am sad and reporting this because it upset me. I should just take it as nothing, but I feel that people are all being mean to me. Why are people all secretly acting like they know more about if I'm good or bad yet seem to not really know? About the person, well the person does things like that and seemed excited. It made me feel queasy. There is no explanation. What if I did that? There would be no explanation. I don't care what a certain person wants. I'm brushing it aside! Or violently fighting it!
They won't stop making suggestions to me and it like continues. Why? Or it really hits and I just don't know what to do. I get made fun of and don't feel like tackily forming a mad feeling. They just gave a sign again!
Also, something made my nose feel more dead and hard. What happened? Another thing I did by accident? It's not going away.
Why are people going in and being suggestive to me when I literally didn't do nor start anything?
Okay, anyway, I'm going off to eat, now.
More Thoughts on "Dad"
I feel so blatant like I have his tongue and toes.
It's kinda annoying you feel like you can't be left alone as a person. Like, when a fat, dark, Caucasian guy, which happened, follows you and won't stop asking you like to marry them. They tend to do that or used to.
I feel a bit crinkled like my mom, don't like it, feels ***. Some of it's actually okay.. Maybe cuz I enjoyed some of my dad's extremities. He thinks he has to be perfect and for me secretly, but he keeps being upset. I don't wanna be just like Grams, but I thought she was so cool growing up. It seems my dad stared her down to punish me. I don't wanna be like the other grandparents, neither. Well, my Gramma's parents looked good and his dad kinda did, tho I heard he had problems. His dad's side seems like the only normal side. My Gram is having problems with me, I feel. I just sent her something in the mail. I really didn't do anything. She just has problems. I don't wanna be just like anyone, tho. I don't really think anyone does. I guess I set some of the stakes too high. And others not high enough. It's something you realize late. I like these people, but I'm a different person from everyone.
It's kinda annoying you feel like you can't be left alone as a person. Like, when a fat, dark, Caucasian guy, which happened, follows you and won't stop asking you like to marry them. They tend to do that or used to.
I feel a bit crinkled like my mom, don't like it, feels ***. Some of it's actually okay.. Maybe cuz I enjoyed some of my dad's extremities. He thinks he has to be perfect and for me secretly, but he keeps being upset. I don't wanna be just like Grams, but I thought she was so cool growing up. It seems my dad stared her down to punish me. I don't wanna be like the other grandparents, neither. Well, my Gramma's parents looked good and his dad kinda did, tho I heard he had problems. His dad's side seems like the only normal side. My Gram is having problems with me, I feel. I just sent her something in the mail. I really didn't do anything. She just has problems. I don't wanna be just like anyone, tho. I don't really think anyone does. I guess I set some of the stakes too high. And others not high enough. It's something you realize late. I like these people, but I'm a different person from everyone.
Up
Slept a total of like 11 hours.
Waiting for the bathroom.
I woke up a few times, slept with TV. I remember my 1st dream. The people were nice. A tall female who was a little obese with like dirty blonde hair put her arm around me near the end. It was a dangerous mission dream.
Before sleeping, watched Judge Judy, as well, so Dr. Oz, Dr. Phil, Judge Judy, all the same channel.
Waiting for the bathroom.
I woke up a few times, slept with TV. I remember my 1st dream. The people were nice. A tall female who was a little obese with like dirty blonde hair put her arm around me near the end. It was a dangerous mission dream.
Before sleeping, watched Judge Judy, as well, so Dr. Oz, Dr. Phil, Judge Judy, all the same channel.
Monday, January 5, 2015
Stress
When my dad comes home, I have to be careful and I leave a noisemaker on in my room. I just feel stressed around people sometimes.. My dad always seems on guard to knock me down. He thought of something severe today. It's hopeless, my passion for Phantom and the fact I accidentally thought something when provoked, trying to ignore stuff.
Want Kids?
I am waiting til 40, it's a good age to me.
If not for you, then just know the internet makes everything available and you can live at home with your kids. There's not much out there, otherwise.
I was worried about babysitting and daycare, like when I go to the movies. It seems like it should work out. It's what you do. What do we have to offer kids today? These young people having kids? The parent needs to be occupied in working. Daycare could be a nice places for babies to be. It could make them smarter in some ways.... Hey, if you can raise a kid, then okay.
If not for you, then just know the internet makes everything available and you can live at home with your kids. There's not much out there, otherwise.
I was worried about babysitting and daycare, like when I go to the movies. It seems like it should work out. It's what you do. What do we have to offer kids today? These young people having kids? The parent needs to be occupied in working. Daycare could be a nice places for babies to be. It could make them smarter in some ways.... Hey, if you can raise a kid, then okay.
A Calculation of 1
Why do people assume that what someone really wants is something that is inhuman, like 1 person to 1 person rather than a lotta people???? I am getting annoyed. Annoyed at the idea.
The 411
It's people staring at people I like who are talking to me .. making judgements and eying that they are mean to me. That they have to be by them. Who, what.. well, it is happening in a multiple # greater than 1. It's just the report. My opinion? Obviously that it could lead to real troubles. You think there aren't any real troubles now. I'm not talking back, but this is what is gonna unfortunately take place.
Honestly
The tongue thing? No, it was not a problem before. It went away, but I can recall on it. I dunno, I don't dream about touching others's tongues for a reason. He was kinda doing it in a freaky way. It's like he finds me an attractive female. He keeps looking at me. It's nice, but he's also always mad at me.
I bet they want me to look at my mom like he looks at me. So, my dad made me fat? I wasn't that fat, was I? Lotta people are overweight and fine as people. He might be nice to others, IMO. Sometimes, I don't get what he wants, like he has nothing to say. It might be because of the Native American indian.. :(
Well, sorry, I wanted to report it not be mean about it. I don't really think I like touching others's tongues. I just can't see that happening with me, unless I did get married by 40 and my husband did it to me but not in a way I didn't like.
I don't know the concrete answer, maybe it's funny. A ha ha ha. Lighten up, C. If it stayed irritating and never went away or happened often, I guess the irritating part is something you can safely say you need to weed. People just don't face reality.
I bet they want me to look at my mom like he looks at me. So, my dad made me fat? I wasn't that fat, was I? Lotta people are overweight and fine as people. He might be nice to others, IMO. Sometimes, I don't get what he wants, like he has nothing to say. It might be because of the Native American indian.. :(
Well, sorry, I wanted to report it not be mean about it. I don't really think I like touching others's tongues. I just can't see that happening with me, unless I did get married by 40 and my husband did it to me but not in a way I didn't like.
I don't know the concrete answer, maybe it's funny. A ha ha ha. Lighten up, C. If it stayed irritating and never went away or happened often, I guess the irritating part is something you can safely say you need to weed. People just don't face reality.
Sparkle
Move to Orlando, and you'll see I don't get treated like one of them when it comes to being perfect. It's my race.
Wanting Bad Things? as an Excuse
Why do people keep looking at me like I want bad things racially, like I should be ashamed I follow people like Josh Groban?
Strange
I don't like how I get secret messages on IMDb. I just have to think I get them sometimes. It just seems dangerous, a dangerous start. I mean like experiment messages. It might be fun, but I really feel like I'm looked at like I'm something I'm not.
Problem
I even said checking out I didn't know if I should get the dessert. My dad acted all pushy like I had to eat it.
I feel big now.. I used to be skinny. Maybe, this time, I'll make it.
I feel big now.. I used to be skinny. Maybe, this time, I'll make it.
Why?
cuz I'm not.. Fine, say it, I'm not! I wanna be left alone so I can succeed in this world. Is that something you find you should make fun of in people?
I know..
..it's all because of seeing Phantom the same day. They think it was really bad, but you all stressed me out. I wanted to be left alone.
I'm serious.
This is bothering me. These people are all so mean to me. I don't have anything very physical to do. I jog and walk all the time. I sleep.
These people are acting meanly/crazily/whatever, since I thought, "Leave me alone," around an Asian lady. I can think that. I can even say that, in general. I didn't mean to get that message across! I don't mean it, now, that I can think.
These people are acting meanly/crazily/whatever, since I thought, "Leave me alone," around an Asian lady. I can think that. I can even say that, in general. I didn't mean to get that message across! I don't mean it, now, that I can think.
Distraught
I don't want to sit here and feel for my dad putting his tongue in my mouth. He kept smacking his lips annoyingly and following me being upset.
Who else has to do this? It might seem like a toy to anyone else, but it's something that irritates me, to constantly be bothered in private ever since moving to Orlando permanently. You'd imagine, something else would happen, but I'm just posting about it and wondering if anyone knows .. it's not!
My privacy goes in a cycle. I just get paid attention to too much *sob* by people when I think that I don't like them! I moved back home because I thought I was ripped off my family.
Also, I noticed I jokingly said *sob* and I feel people are making things up about behavior and having non-Southern blood. Like, it is not inappropriate to go thru things. To say things that express dependency in some fashion.
I do not mean anyone any harm! I am not an internet psycho!
(Insert: Why do you think I am talking to certain people? What if I said I wasn't?.. I think I was here to give a report. Just to let you know about my day and real day-to-day .. "things.." I gotta post something if I'm gonna post. So, I just post and talk in general, hopefully, or whatever is generally going ons..)
Who else gets called Asian? I don't wanna be what Asian is.. who would? I don't wanna be a lotta things. I just wanna know the answer. I don't play around and make up some weird thing. I say hi to Asians. I mean, people keep bothering me about Asian stuff. I wanna live! I don't do nothing! People all know I'm Asian, now, for no reason! There is no reason I should look more Asian now. It's been after Tim Burton and Johnny Depp were famous. You know, some people don't do this. It's just wrong. I was gonna say more, but I forget. I'm not trying to bite at anyone. I passed the test. Okay. Why are people bothering me? They keep calling me stuff. My life is a horror. I feel so irritated at anything a person does. I'm not crying out. I'm complaining. I'm telling you how I feel. My head feels like stressed and out of focus. There's a constant beating that went on in there. Some people I know find this interesting. I guess you all think you're whiter than me and I'm shamed to say this, but you're not! Do you know anyone from another race who never lusted after their race? I am not lusting over my race!
Who else has to do this? It might seem like a toy to anyone else, but it's something that irritates me, to constantly be bothered in private ever since moving to Orlando permanently. You'd imagine, something else would happen, but I'm just posting about it and wondering if anyone knows .. it's not!
My privacy goes in a cycle. I just get paid attention to too much *sob* by people when I think that I don't like them! I moved back home because I thought I was ripped off my family.
Also, I noticed I jokingly said *sob* and I feel people are making things up about behavior and having non-Southern blood. Like, it is not inappropriate to go thru things. To say things that express dependency in some fashion.
I do not mean anyone any harm! I am not an internet psycho!
(Insert: Why do you think I am talking to certain people? What if I said I wasn't?.. I think I was here to give a report. Just to let you know about my day and real day-to-day .. "things.." I gotta post something if I'm gonna post. So, I just post and talk in general, hopefully, or whatever is generally going ons..)
Who else gets called Asian? I don't wanna be what Asian is.. who would? I don't wanna be a lotta things. I just wanna know the answer. I don't play around and make up some weird thing. I say hi to Asians. I mean, people keep bothering me about Asian stuff. I wanna live! I don't do nothing! People all know I'm Asian, now, for no reason! There is no reason I should look more Asian now. It's been after Tim Burton and Johnny Depp were famous. You know, some people don't do this. It's just wrong. I was gonna say more, but I forget. I'm not trying to bite at anyone. I passed the test. Okay. Why are people bothering me? They keep calling me stuff. My life is a horror. I feel so irritated at anything a person does. I'm not crying out. I'm complaining. I'm telling you how I feel. My head feels like stressed and out of focus. There's a constant beating that went on in there. Some people I know find this interesting. I guess you all think you're whiter than me and I'm shamed to say this, but you're not! Do you know anyone from another race who never lusted after their race? I am not lusting over my race!
There's probably nothing left in the world.
Learning to say no without knowing is all you're doing.
I am with the young parents who had kids, not the older people who think they had them in spite. They are secretly mean to them.
Ow
Someone drove by with hatred, and I feel my back has turns on it. Now, I'm just tired, like when I slipped in the theater in the audience after using the bathroom during Mary Poppins 1-2 years ago. My ankle, when I walk.
Why is everyone against me and won't leave me alone? I've been called lots of things, and I don't call anyone anything and therefore should be respected. It wasn't like this before is about all I have to say now. Before Tim Burton and Johnny Depp became famous. Yea, everyone went crazy and thought they were their spitting image or posed as though that were so. This is not the new dedication and way of life. I feel these people experimenting on me are wasting time with me.
Why is everyone against me and won't leave me alone? I've been called lots of things, and I don't call anyone anything and therefore should be respected. It wasn't like this before is about all I have to say now. Before Tim Burton and Johnny Depp became famous. Yea, everyone went crazy and thought they were their spitting image or posed as though that were so. This is not the new dedication and way of life. I feel these people experimenting on me are wasting time with me.
Argh!
I looked thru every old picture in 1 room, and I can't seem to find a couple things.
I walked, forgot to jog. I feel a bit bored and messy. I did some laundry, ironed and am washing stuff I can tumble dry. I've gotta iron again, hopefully tomorrow, and then I might have 2 loads of things to hang up. I like wearing tight pants and tight spaghetti straps.
Now.. I guess I'll post/sing. I could work on my books! and script book.
I wanna go to school. I wonder if the medicine is making me tired. I wonder if I should move to a campus. It's easier when your parents can drive you stuff and go to the grocery store on weekends. I wish I was a big driver. I just don't go around much other than the movies. I do drive sometimes with my dad still. At least, I can work on some stuff myself. I wonder if the 3 books and CD are my ticket to making money. I was hoping I could sell the stuff physically in stores, but maybe not.. I wonder how I'll get any business. My 1st book is 50 pages on personality. Each page is a different topic, "easy as pie"/"a piece of cake," right? I'll sell it for like $7.99, I originally thought. It'll just be a paperback. It seems more like a magazine. Like, remember the magazines for teens with quizzes and stuff and probably "hot" advice? So far, most of it is complaining about the other personality books I've gone thru to different extents.. It's a bit campy, itself, too, but much worse. I address smart things, but people will calculate what I really did and say something else.
Well, I feel more like working on the personality book.
I walked, forgot to jog. I feel a bit bored and messy. I did some laundry, ironed and am washing stuff I can tumble dry. I've gotta iron again, hopefully tomorrow, and then I might have 2 loads of things to hang up. I like wearing tight pants and tight spaghetti straps.
Now.. I guess I'll post/sing. I could work on my books! and script book.
I wanna go to school. I wonder if the medicine is making me tired. I wonder if I should move to a campus. It's easier when your parents can drive you stuff and go to the grocery store on weekends. I wish I was a big driver. I just don't go around much other than the movies. I do drive sometimes with my dad still. At least, I can work on some stuff myself. I wonder if the 3 books and CD are my ticket to making money. I was hoping I could sell the stuff physically in stores, but maybe not.. I wonder how I'll get any business. My 1st book is 50 pages on personality. Each page is a different topic, "easy as pie"/"a piece of cake," right? I'll sell it for like $7.99, I originally thought. It'll just be a paperback. It seems more like a magazine. Like, remember the magazines for teens with quizzes and stuff and probably "hot" advice? So far, most of it is complaining about the other personality books I've gone thru to different extents.. It's a bit campy, itself, too, but much worse. I address smart things, but people will calculate what I really did and say something else.
Well, I feel more like working on the personality book.
I just found
people don't hate fair mixed race people. They just wanna act obnoxious and maybe discriminate their opportunity for existence for other "personal" reasons that exist where you can chose to hate someone..
Human Dolphin Hybrids
link
Project Camelot
...
"In a stunning revelation, he describes his role in military abductions, working alongside non-human entities (greys) taking targets, (male and female) from their homes late at night to underground bases for experimentation and programming. He talks about the retrieval of renegade agents, where the programming had malfunctioned. Flying in a TR-3B, the target was picked up, reprogrammed and replaced back in their homes without the neighbors, occupants of the home, or even dogs being aware."
Picture of Dolphin Embryo
Human and Dolphin Embryo
Project Camelot
...
"In a stunning revelation, he describes his role in military abductions, working alongside non-human entities (greys) taking targets, (male and female) from their homes late at night to underground bases for experimentation and programming. He talks about the retrieval of renegade agents, where the programming had malfunctioned. Flying in a TR-3B, the target was picked up, reprogrammed and replaced back in their homes without the neighbors, occupants of the home, or even dogs being aware."
Picture of Dolphin Embryo
Human and Dolphin Embryo
Mixed Race
link
If humans and apes/chimps mixed, if the mom were white the baby would be huge and if the dad were white the children would be small. The child would die quickly after existing.
I rented a video from Netflix in 2010/2011, and it was about couples having babies, at least 2 examples of mixed heritages. 1 was an Asian dad and Latino mom. The daughter just looked Asian. I've seen lotta other mixed race pictures of people who are young adults like me stretching and playing with their given faces. I think you could look white both ways. People with a colored dad or lotta strength have a lotta strength. It seems that the child is from the dad, and the care is from the mom, then. I kinda liked the idea of being like the mom as far as genetics go. It's funny I just look white. I think my mom made me look mixed. I wanted to be like my mom maybe and alter my features to at least be like my dad's race. I don't seem to have a fighting chance at claiming an identity cuz no one knows where what came from and what is what they what they most have an interest in.
If humans and apes/chimps mixed, if the mom were white the baby would be huge and if the dad were white the children would be small. The child would die quickly after existing.
I rented a video from Netflix in 2010/2011, and it was about couples having babies, at least 2 examples of mixed heritages. 1 was an Asian dad and Latino mom. The daughter just looked Asian. I've seen lotta other mixed race pictures of people who are young adults like me stretching and playing with their given faces. I think you could look white both ways. People with a colored dad or lotta strength have a lotta strength. It seems that the child is from the dad, and the care is from the mom, then. I kinda liked the idea of being like the mom as far as genetics go. It's funny I just look white. I think my mom made me look mixed. I wanted to be like my mom maybe and alter my features to at least be like my dad's race. I don't seem to have a fighting chance at claiming an identity cuz no one knows where what came from and what is what they what they most have an interest in.
Up
I took a nap and woke up in between, no sock on, got cold, on the sofa in my room. I was still tired but wanted up. I may walk and shower.. maybe another nap.
I had pecan delights, hot dog, fatless burger my dad got, and OJ.
I had pecan delights, hot dog, fatless burger my dad got, and OJ.
Mermaids may exist, but are primates human?
I read that a dolphin and human could exist for a life of development at like 1 second.
What do you think of "obese" people and skinny special people?
Special skinny people?
Some fat guys hold to it.
Girls make it a glamorous statement..
I thought obese people have something to say. People like some people skinny and others maybe don't care. I was wondering that wouldn't work out with jealousy and life not being fair. I mean, you see teenagers, I was thinking, and lotta them still "tiny." I read body mass increases with age but that when you're fat it's easy to get fatter and fatter than it was before.
I feel I've gotten to a point where I'm too big. I was trying to be big. Now tall. I must admit, some skinny people seem like animals, kinda simple. Why? They don't really eat right? Nothing for the brain? Just live on chips when you're hungry?
Some fat guys hold to it.
Girls make it a glamorous statement..
I thought obese people have something to say. People like some people skinny and others maybe don't care. I was wondering that wouldn't work out with jealousy and life not being fair. I mean, you see teenagers, I was thinking, and lotta them still "tiny." I read body mass increases with age but that when you're fat it's easy to get fatter and fatter than it was before.
I feel I've gotten to a point where I'm too big. I was trying to be big. Now tall. I must admit, some skinny people seem like animals, kinda simple. Why? They don't really eat right? Nothing for the brain? Just live on chips when you're hungry?
Sunday, January 4, 2015
"Fresh" Babies
Sometimes, when the mother is 26, the baby is fresh. Too bad I can't tell you my mom's age. But, people thought we were sisters and I was a doll. It doesn't sound like she was 15 when I was born, tho.. My 2nd cousin's oldest daughter, that's a different story. Her sister has dark hair.
Just because my brother was born when my mom was older, people have beaten me up, scratched me and ripped me up but not literally disfiguring me like that.. trying to even me out and blaming me for my brother's problems. Have you heard the story? That people disdain their younger siblings, much less be beat up for their anger? It's partly like an excuse for my mom to not pester me and make me feel ugly. I bet tho I always wore pigtails she was too lazy to have me in sunblock or I was born colored but not gray colored.
Just because my brother was born when my mom was older, people have beaten me up, scratched me and ripped me up but not literally disfiguring me like that.. trying to even me out and blaming me for my brother's problems. Have you heard the story? That people disdain their younger siblings, much less be beat up for their anger? It's partly like an excuse for my mom to not pester me and make me feel ugly. I bet tho I always wore pigtails she was too lazy to have me in sunblock or I was born colored but not gray colored.
Back
I go some makeup and pecan chocolates and a drink.. + a sandwich and a drink I didn't like with high fructose corn syrup. It cost a lotta money, wasn't sure I should get it. I need new makeup and I got some nice ones but not too many.
Wells
Who am I talking to..? Let me guess, I am also allowed to address total strangers on here..
Hello, sweetie! I love you all! There, you can forget about me now.
What more to say.. I hope life treats you kindly. Uh-huh uh-huh uh-huh.
I think the New Year's resolution that popped out for me was that the generations be restored to their positive glory which is effectively good. It's so sad to see the world fall like this, all because they want to bring justice in every facet possible. That got them more comfortable yet not on top. I think people are just upset with themselves physically. We need to have more "adult gymnastics" and better adult ballet.
Hello, sweetie! I love you all! There, you can forget about me now.
What more to say.. I hope life treats you kindly. Uh-huh uh-huh uh-huh.
I think the New Year's resolution that popped out for me was that the generations be restored to their positive glory which is effectively good. It's so sad to see the world fall like this, all because they want to bring justice in every facet possible. That got them more comfortable yet not on top. I think people are just upset with themselves physically. We need to have more "adult gymnastics" and better adult ballet.
Woke Up
I woke up around 5/6.
I ate some supper with my parents. My brother is with a friend..
My dad just shaved off all my hair, and I used Wen. It leaves hair light and limp. I mean, it makes the color lighter. It also isn't "real shampoo" so makes hair fall down rather than poof up.
I'm gonna jog soon. I was gonna wait and check out the online world later but may get tired.
I ate some supper with my parents. My brother is with a friend..
My dad just shaved off all my hair, and I used Wen. It leaves hair light and limp. I mean, it makes the color lighter. It also isn't "real shampoo" so makes hair fall down rather than poof up.
I'm gonna jog soon. I was gonna wait and check out the online world later but may get tired.
Edit
I edited the title to a post so it isn't plagiarism. (He's There.. It's the Phantom of the Opera)
2 or 3 of my relatives/in-laws
who dyed their hair and smoked a lot in life passed away in the 2000s and 2010s. They were older already. I like to take a smoke but don't, and my hair has been dyed a lot, as well as chopped off.
To Talk or Not to Talk
Do you ever feel some people are wrapping you up but not talking to you.. act like they want you to talk to them? But they don't.
This actually happens to me a lot, in a way. People want me to recite their creeds of life in my head or something or give it up and act like I don't know what's important to do. I have not much money yet to donate to something..
Do you know people who pretend they wanna help you, but in the end they're "helping themselves?" I was alluding in my head to people who get attention and put themselves down.
This actually happens to me a lot, in a way. People want me to recite their creeds of life in my head or something or give it up and act like I don't know what's important to do. I have not much money yet to donate to something..
Do you know people who pretend they wanna help you, but in the end they're "helping themselves?" I was alluding in my head to people who get attention and put themselves down.
The People Who Want the Same "Thing" 1st
(You know, thought-based things.)
It's strange that it's older people like my dad that take a precedence for this. How/In what way will we go on, now that we found formula this out? Will we take care of it 1st without hurting any innocent people?
I hope this informative topic is useful.
It's strange that it's older people like my dad that take a precedence for this. How/In what way will we go on, now that we found formula this out? Will we take care of it 1st without hurting any innocent people?
I hope this informative topic is useful.
Buzzing off My Hair
I'm gonna use my Wen because it makes my hair lighter. It'll be over 2 inches by my birthday, May 20th. :) :o tonight tonight
I just took a shower.
I am refreshed but wet and have no socks on, which I hate. The junk is all sitting in my tummy.
Should someone who
is hateful and spiteful have things the way they want? People just tend to find me guilty forever, don't thinka nothin' else. It's just not even a philosophy of why I'm in jail. It's more of a game.
I ha-ave returned!
I'm so sore in the stomach, but it doesn't hurt badly like usual cuza all the walking. I've eaten junk food all the night/early morn hours that I et. I probably will fall asleep before a shower but don't really know for sure.
Who agrees I should be punished?
Some/Necessarily all of the people who get closest to me who still have it good?
Am I Scrooge on Christmas asking that Tiny Tim make it, along with thyself?
N-never forget that anyone and everyone can make it in the end. We just have to shuffle things around so people will stop bickering. I am big on that. I just want a polished life, and I see the invitations in the minimum wage caliber of work. How can I do that if I wanna be a singer, let alone actor?
Yes, we could all be actors but not all be the most famous. We have to see who's got what and what others want to do later. I'm thinking of entering the Entertainment Business. If not already in it as a self-employed writing stuff and yes singing.
Will I follow a sad demise like Eponine from Les Miserables insofar as she dies? She starts off the fortunate daughter of 2 inkeepers, whereas Cosette used to not be as high a caliber as she socially/monetarily speaking.
Am I Scrooge on Christmas asking that Tiny Tim make it, along with thyself?
N-never forget that anyone and everyone can make it in the end. We just have to shuffle things around so people will stop bickering. I am big on that. I just want a polished life, and I see the invitations in the minimum wage caliber of work. How can I do that if I wanna be a singer, let alone actor?
Yes, we could all be actors but not all be the most famous. We have to see who's got what and what others want to do later. I'm thinking of entering the Entertainment Business. If not already in it as a self-employed writing stuff and yes singing.
How destitute can a person be?
..thinking on what is possible with their lives and what could be terminated any day?
How do you feel about people in hi places?..
..who do not realize, tho good people at the root, don't really have too many things going for them anymore? They could supposedly die any day by unknown forces, as could anyone, and what will they have to say about their helplessness compared to the supposed worth a person has to live?
chrismannmusic
@ brooke.morris Wow! You and Chris are both obsessed with what's in this video!! I actually read an article about posting your favorite movie clips online, tho I am afraid it is illegal. I own Elf. I saw it at my therapist's office, some of it. I liked Zooey Deschanel. I liked the kids that you see come after the boss shows Elf around or whoever he is. 1 is probably 1 of those kids born around 1997-1998, and the other was born like 1992-1994. The later was more slick and slim, but the younger one was being cared for and caressed sorta in the background. The 2 kids are the only reason I like it. It's a nice movie to see once for me. I think Chris asked for our go-to Christmas movies a little while ago and he mentioned this and Home Alone. I would be interested to recap on Home Alone but didn't really like what I inspected of it, seemed a bit false.. Did you know that actor played the Nutcracker prince in a DVD? I lost it, but some of it is cute. I shouldn't have been spending that money, back in 2006/7 when I moved to Orlando. Chris, sorry this post is long, but it's about you guys's supposedly both favored movie, at least! Was explaining what I liked when I got it.
He's There .. It's the Phantom of the Opera
This was totally a great experience. I saw it 3 times with Chris Mann as the Phantom. There was lots to say, but I forgot it all now. It wasn't just about the show. It was fun.
I screamed so loudly when the Phantom came out. I did twice, tried to replicate what I did for Sarah Brightman and Jackie Evancho, once each concert, I know I was able at the 1st. I also screamed for the orchestra.
So, today, I told my dad that the stairs were there in spite or something but that they were my favorite, other than the guy who played the Phantom. It seems dangerous.
The actors were so good today. I wanted to shout out for Raoul. Christine gave a sound performance! I feel more like the stereotypical musical theater character with long curly hair. I went out wandering like a woman. She's supposed to be a teenager.
I also talked to another person before. I said, are you a dancer, to a girl with a tight blonde bun, and she said she was Meg. I said, "Oh my gosh..!..You were so good!" Someone else talked. I was happy to see Raoul and Christine but didn't get to stop and chat. I wanted to give praise to them. I didn't really like being in a dress such as this. I don't know what to spend to do about my hair, too. Just shave it? Get a wig.. Money money money money .. but I think I can do it.
At the bathroom at intermission, I told some girls they could meet him but didn't see them that I know of. They should announce it. Or even have people pay to do it.
I screamed so loudly when the Phantom came out. I did twice, tried to replicate what I did for Sarah Brightman and Jackie Evancho, once each concert, I know I was able at the 1st. I also screamed for the orchestra.
So, today, I told my dad that the stairs were there in spite or something but that they were my favorite, other than the guy who played the Phantom. It seems dangerous.
The actors were so good today. I wanted to shout out for Raoul. Christine gave a sound performance! I feel more like the stereotypical musical theater character with long curly hair. I went out wandering like a woman. She's supposed to be a teenager.
I also talked to another person before. I said, are you a dancer, to a girl with a tight blonde bun, and she said she was Meg. I said, "Oh my gosh..!..You were so good!" Someone else talked. I was happy to see Raoul and Christine but didn't get to stop and chat. I wanted to give praise to them. I didn't really like being in a dress such as this. I don't know what to spend to do about my hair, too. Just shave it? Get a wig.. Money money money money .. but I think I can do it.
At the bathroom at intermission, I told some girls they could meet him but didn't see them that I know of. They should announce it. Or even have people pay to do it.
Depression
I was in bed this morning/yesterday and realized I'm not a teenager with people ready for me to go out and live. I'm dysfunctional. Remember that "popular" term??
The Positive Things I've Done-
When I lived in Louisiana, I had Florida in my heart.
When I moved to Orlando, I was Slidellian Louisianian/New Orleanian. Now, I've been here awhile, I'm not Floridian so much but an O-nizen. It's the better alternative to LA and, sorry to say, LV. It's Florida, Disney, it's the real deal, Disney has a carpet laid out. I was stuck cuz my family was such a nuisance in the environment and I didn't think of ear plugs. Just at the table was bad for me.
I always understood how good to move to the South/country or up north to experience life. I mean, the midwest is excellent. I spent a long time fascinated with someone from there. I had this teacher in singing in group classes all my 1st year. I just happen to still live at home, a bit sick. Sick feeling. I found there were differences that weren't so different- I've gotten in trouble.. I'm no longer what I once was and didn't get affected by a nurturing environment, like ever. It's been awhile, Mom's sick with cancer. I don't mean to complain to anyone. I'm just explaining.
When Mardi Gras comes to Orlando, no one cares about me, cuz I moved when I was 12.
When I moved to Orlando, I was Slidellian Louisianian/New Orleanian. Now, I've been here awhile, I'm not Floridian so much but an O-nizen. It's the better alternative to LA and, sorry to say, LV. It's Florida, Disney, it's the real deal, Disney has a carpet laid out. I was stuck cuz my family was such a nuisance in the environment and I didn't think of ear plugs. Just at the table was bad for me.
I always understood how good to move to the South/country or up north to experience life. I mean, the midwest is excellent. I spent a long time fascinated with someone from there. I had this teacher in singing in group classes all my 1st year. I just happen to still live at home, a bit sick. Sick feeling. I found there were differences that weren't so different- I've gotten in trouble.. I'm no longer what I once was and didn't get affected by a nurturing environment, like ever. It's been awhile, Mom's sick with cancer. I don't mean to complain to anyone. I'm just explaining.
When Mardi Gras comes to Orlando, no one cares about me, cuz I moved when I was 12.
Being Provided For
1st off, I am a personality, not just a person with heritage from the South.. I lived in New Orleans all thru junior hi and hi school and college, it feels. So, I can provide. I dunno what's up the stairs with my dad? Experiencing life the way he deems up to par.
I guess my writing was so awfully negative because I do not have up north heritage other than when I went to college there and some at my visits, tho I think they saw me as from Florida. I don't say, "I'm Floridian." "I'm from Florida-" And I don't live on a rich beach.
Because I don't like every aspect of my heritage, it seems. I can fix it, but there's just this fetish. I do stand back. I think people just got mad they weren't from there. It seems those places are normal and family-oriented. Other places are all "the South." Even New England moved to .. "the South." Those are the Acadians. You know, I forgot what Cajun meant. That's where I lived all those years I mentioned.
I can provide . I am 28. I am Louisianian. You can't take that away .. from me! I have tricks up my sleeve, as well.
I guess my writing was so awfully negative because I do not have up north heritage other than when I went to college there and some at my visits, tho I think they saw me as from Florida. I don't say, "I'm Floridian." "I'm from Florida-" And I don't live on a rich beach.
Because I don't like every aspect of my heritage, it seems. I can fix it, but there's just this fetish. I do stand back. I think people just got mad they weren't from there. It seems those places are normal and family-oriented. Other places are all "the South." Even New England moved to .. "the South." Those are the Acadians. You know, I forgot what Cajun meant. That's where I lived all those years I mentioned.
I can provide . I am 28. I am Louisianian. You can't take that away .. from me! I have tricks up my sleeve, as well.
My Misadventures..!
Of course one of the favorite things I've done is go see The Phantom of the Opera today in Tampa. It's not really a milestone but a favorite thing.... and I don't have many of those, insofar as I do have things I like yet not .. "favorite" .. things. Things in life, in my life.. With racism, I lost the feeling I'd live forever. Sadly, after seeing a real ghost at my Gramma's, she acted like no more ghosts and there were .. no more ghosts. Not even the hidden ones from my little brother. Not the little things, which I expected would somewhat have to come to a halt. Symbols of nothing. Nothing but black holes on this earth.
I ran into an Asian lady, and I had just been half called a retard half joked with and I was so stupid and tired I was upset. I waltzed around, and people looked at me like "I didn't do 'it.'" I felt tired and was ready to be left alone driving there. I dunno why really, I know I had a mad streak, but when I ran into the lady, who was tan and seemed prejudiced I thought, "Got away." I didn't do anything, didn't try to make this known. I thought then, "Go find your real children," and looked at white people and it didn't happen. They literally called me the n word, I feel. They kinda smiled, too. Wait, it wasn't even, "Go away," which I think a lot. It was, "Leave me alone." She acted like maybe I was something weird as an Asian as some accomplishment and that now I was nothing. She thought she had my life to torture I feel, now. I ended it positive and all, thinking snappily, "It's not in it in *blank*" It just sorta came out. No one will leave me alone, all these losers here. That brings me to The Phantom of the Opera. The Phantom, whom I saw it for, acted like messed up Orlando was good, so good.. and that Tampa thinking they were real Floridians were bad. It doesn't say anywhere how long one lives somewhere. It's all about getting attention from Europe as being a "pure race." And it was just "no." I'm sorry, but I think a lotta us think we'd love other cultures. I myself lived in a different culture than either parent. I have a lotta benefits people are jealous of and people think I couldn't emulate and recreate the phantom. That's not what I do with myself, tho, tho it kinda is.. I don't shoot for that itself but to be me in a better way, LOL..
So, this whole time, my dad is driving like a mad man on the inside in spirit. Just because I slipped. The show wasn't lame, but the situation still existed, like it was more important.
I will admit I was not perfect, but I cannot seem to check myself out since Tim Burton and Johnny Depp became famous. It's not because of me but because of my parents that I would not be considered Floridian and New Orleanian. I am suspicious of the fact that being New Yorker and Pennsylvanian is trashy in some way.. Something is owed and due to me. I will not say I am my parents only to be told suddenly it is better to be from somewhere I'm not when I just said that. I mean, 1st me having blood from PA is uncool and suddenly when I describe it PA means something again for the people who live there but not me, like some trick. Like I'm not a worthy servant. Quit making Pennsylvaniers and New Yorkers servants to embody that which you think is a sorta basic scratch and sniff example to parade while you use us as like simple little legos when we're real people. LOL, that made sense, but I don't know how.
I sound rather mad here, and I don't intend to. It just seemed like I was being tricked that I should say something else or that it would take way too long or maybe I just don't wanna fix something this long and meaningless. Meaningless explanations to me, in a way. I don't know about bad guys in New York and Pennsylvania. I went there in the airport, and the men there were very competent, Buffalo, NY. NYC seems spectacular, maybe a bit agitated, never toured there. I did land in a plane there and stayed on it on my way to Rochester, NY for 2 weeks.
I just remembered I forgot to add up there that I got my female thing before the show started and it got bigger than usual. I see it affects my ability to think. I also got hungry but feel to shy to go out and get something, also am using the restroom. Water! Also wanna get this down on my blog. I don't have snack cracker packs to open up.. I need to be on a diet. I got off it a bit. Not just the holidays..
So, about what I think, I dunno about what I'm made of from my parents it being boring in Pennsylvania in the 1950s and 1960s and the farmers before that. My mom's side I think owned something like a factory or farm on a side. That's probably what's to worry about, the mentality you can get from Mom and Dad.. I bet you trust people who move to Florida from PA more than me? I was not even created up north, and my mom is not even from this hemisphere but as white as white can be. *bawls* Will we ever solve the mystery of Dad? Any of us, including us Pennsylvaniers, could be born somewhere like Pennsylvania, and it'd "have" to work out. It's not a guarantee we won't be! I just don't think Pennsylvania sucks. I have a good mix from Pennsylvania and a little from New York. None from the 2 P cities. Boy o boy, wait until you look for a city in the NE. I agree, PA is its own animal! It's like, okay, I got what I want, should I go? NY has some issues, but some of it seems okay. It seems like a class barrier. They do get mad. PA? They are questionable. It might make me seem stupid to be from a farm from there. Wait, that is inaccurate. That is my dad. Just because I was shy in Slidell, LA, does not mean I am not actually from there. People want to lock others up as a failure since Tim Burton and Johnny Depp became famous. We can't further ourselves. I lived in Sllidell, LA, from 2 years of junior hi, all 4 years of hi school, and some college in the city. My shyness is getting in the way of me being judged. I think some people just don't like me. CA and FL are boring heritage-wise. FL has nice beaches, tho. See what's here.. I guarantee you, people from CA and FL have brains.
Um, don't make up more excuses like I was white before and now I'm not. I didn't make myself tan. Lotta people get tans, and my skin is usually paler, my face. My Gramma was white but not pink and looks a little darker now. She has the paternal Native American indian. Her mom has Ashkenazi Jewish, too. Perhaps, my dad's dad was white and from NE PA. Also, he has relatives in Cleveland, where I loved it so much. I went to college there twice for organ at music conservatories.
Why do you think Pennsylvanians happen to exist? And are so hated? 2 questions, now. New York is like Ohio. It does have many differences, I bet. I wouldn't be the only expert. The traits I share with my dad I copied. They would be from PA, nothing wrong with that. He lived it. I am formed like Floridians scrape to form themselves. Did you have any problems with Europe? Cuz with my mom being in a sense "European" or non-American and white, I kinda probably don't have problems with if there is any hope of a difference between the 2.
You know, I probably am so little in know-how from not having a blog all along. I coulda gotten one in junior hi, a little late. You know, computers weren't as popular for the internet until the late 1990s. The formatting looked like a typewriter.
It's not that I should not talk to anyone cuz they'd be jealous. Everyone wants'em a little Pennsylvania. It's not about having it at 0 but of having other things.
I have to agree it is better to be a pure race than mixed. About my mixture, people think it makes sense tho and creates a liveable being. I'm talking even ethnicity. I've seen proof it makes a difference. I can name the names? Well, let's talk Ricky Gervais. People are who they are. They are a part of a race or they are not part of a certain race. A race is no better than another necessarily. You will find someone you accept over those who are wrong in the end.
I fear this is how I talk and what happened to me. If I don't post it, I wrote nothing again. I didn't realize I skipped 3 lines for this. Neat? What is neat to others? Anything that's not neat cuz then yer Pennsylvanian? LOL.. Isn't it something special? Pennsylvanian farming families? I heard we were Amish/PA Dutch. That's a more pure culture but not a pure ethnicity. The evil probably comes from the mix. I watched Amish ghosts. Ghosts are a good thing. They show life after death. Or torture. I bet a person could bring a ghost to life if only knew how. It's how life got created under the watch of a god.
I am still in limbo on if my writing this is not good or not. I think it is more intelligent and desire-filled than most things. I'll just say sorry it's not 1st sorted out in my head. And that it seems to go against the beliefs even of very good people put at the stake to decide what to make of me/it.
So, is this homework done or taboo? ;) (I forget why I winked.)
I ran into an Asian lady, and I had just been half called a retard half joked with and I was so stupid and tired I was upset. I waltzed around, and people looked at me like "I didn't do 'it.'" I felt tired and was ready to be left alone driving there. I dunno why really, I know I had a mad streak, but when I ran into the lady, who was tan and seemed prejudiced I thought, "Got away." I didn't do anything, didn't try to make this known. I thought then, "Go find your real children," and looked at white people and it didn't happen. They literally called me the n word, I feel. They kinda smiled, too. Wait, it wasn't even, "Go away," which I think a lot. It was, "Leave me alone." She acted like maybe I was something weird as an Asian as some accomplishment and that now I was nothing. She thought she had my life to torture I feel, now. I ended it positive and all, thinking snappily, "It's not in it in *blank*" It just sorta came out. No one will leave me alone, all these losers here. That brings me to The Phantom of the Opera. The Phantom, whom I saw it for, acted like messed up Orlando was good, so good.. and that Tampa thinking they were real Floridians were bad. It doesn't say anywhere how long one lives somewhere. It's all about getting attention from Europe as being a "pure race." And it was just "no." I'm sorry, but I think a lotta us think we'd love other cultures. I myself lived in a different culture than either parent. I have a lotta benefits people are jealous of and people think I couldn't emulate and recreate the phantom. That's not what I do with myself, tho, tho it kinda is.. I don't shoot for that itself but to be me in a better way, LOL..
So, this whole time, my dad is driving like a mad man on the inside in spirit. Just because I slipped. The show wasn't lame, but the situation still existed, like it was more important.
I will admit I was not perfect, but I cannot seem to check myself out since Tim Burton and Johnny Depp became famous. It's not because of me but because of my parents that I would not be considered Floridian and New Orleanian. I am suspicious of the fact that being New Yorker and Pennsylvanian is trashy in some way.. Something is owed and due to me. I will not say I am my parents only to be told suddenly it is better to be from somewhere I'm not when I just said that. I mean, 1st me having blood from PA is uncool and suddenly when I describe it PA means something again for the people who live there but not me, like some trick. Like I'm not a worthy servant. Quit making Pennsylvaniers and New Yorkers servants to embody that which you think is a sorta basic scratch and sniff example to parade while you use us as like simple little legos when we're real people. LOL, that made sense, but I don't know how.
I sound rather mad here, and I don't intend to. It just seemed like I was being tricked that I should say something else or that it would take way too long or maybe I just don't wanna fix something this long and meaningless. Meaningless explanations to me, in a way. I don't know about bad guys in New York and Pennsylvania. I went there in the airport, and the men there were very competent, Buffalo, NY. NYC seems spectacular, maybe a bit agitated, never toured there. I did land in a plane there and stayed on it on my way to Rochester, NY for 2 weeks.
I just remembered I forgot to add up there that I got my female thing before the show started and it got bigger than usual. I see it affects my ability to think. I also got hungry but feel to shy to go out and get something, also am using the restroom. Water! Also wanna get this down on my blog. I don't have snack cracker packs to open up.. I need to be on a diet. I got off it a bit. Not just the holidays..
So, about what I think, I dunno about what I'm made of from my parents it being boring in Pennsylvania in the 1950s and 1960s and the farmers before that. My mom's side I think owned something like a factory or farm on a side. That's probably what's to worry about, the mentality you can get from Mom and Dad.. I bet you trust people who move to Florida from PA more than me? I was not even created up north, and my mom is not even from this hemisphere but as white as white can be. *bawls* Will we ever solve the mystery of Dad? Any of us, including us Pennsylvaniers, could be born somewhere like Pennsylvania, and it'd "have" to work out. It's not a guarantee we won't be! I just don't think Pennsylvania sucks. I have a good mix from Pennsylvania and a little from New York. None from the 2 P cities. Boy o boy, wait until you look for a city in the NE. I agree, PA is its own animal! It's like, okay, I got what I want, should I go? NY has some issues, but some of it seems okay. It seems like a class barrier. They do get mad. PA? They are questionable. It might make me seem stupid to be from a farm from there. Wait, that is inaccurate. That is my dad. Just because I was shy in Slidell, LA, does not mean I am not actually from there. People want to lock others up as a failure since Tim Burton and Johnny Depp became famous. We can't further ourselves. I lived in Sllidell, LA, from 2 years of junior hi, all 4 years of hi school, and some college in the city. My shyness is getting in the way of me being judged. I think some people just don't like me. CA and FL are boring heritage-wise. FL has nice beaches, tho. See what's here.. I guarantee you, people from CA and FL have brains.
Um, don't make up more excuses like I was white before and now I'm not. I didn't make myself tan. Lotta people get tans, and my skin is usually paler, my face. My Gramma was white but not pink and looks a little darker now. She has the paternal Native American indian. Her mom has Ashkenazi Jewish, too. Perhaps, my dad's dad was white and from NE PA. Also, he has relatives in Cleveland, where I loved it so much. I went to college there twice for organ at music conservatories.
Why do you think Pennsylvanians happen to exist? And are so hated? 2 questions, now. New York is like Ohio. It does have many differences, I bet. I wouldn't be the only expert. The traits I share with my dad I copied. They would be from PA, nothing wrong with that. He lived it. I am formed like Floridians scrape to form themselves. Did you have any problems with Europe? Cuz with my mom being in a sense "European" or non-American and white, I kinda probably don't have problems with if there is any hope of a difference between the 2.
You know, I probably am so little in know-how from not having a blog all along. I coulda gotten one in junior hi, a little late. You know, computers weren't as popular for the internet until the late 1990s. The formatting looked like a typewriter.
It's not that I should not talk to anyone cuz they'd be jealous. Everyone wants'em a little Pennsylvania. It's not about having it at 0 but of having other things.
I have to agree it is better to be a pure race than mixed. About my mixture, people think it makes sense tho and creates a liveable being. I'm talking even ethnicity. I've seen proof it makes a difference. I can name the names? Well, let's talk Ricky Gervais. People are who they are. They are a part of a race or they are not part of a certain race. A race is no better than another necessarily. You will find someone you accept over those who are wrong in the end.
I fear this is how I talk and what happened to me. If I don't post it, I wrote nothing again. I didn't realize I skipped 3 lines for this. Neat? What is neat to others? Anything that's not neat cuz then yer Pennsylvanian? LOL.. Isn't it something special? Pennsylvanian farming families? I heard we were Amish/PA Dutch. That's a more pure culture but not a pure ethnicity. The evil probably comes from the mix. I watched Amish ghosts. Ghosts are a good thing. They show life after death. Or torture. I bet a person could bring a ghost to life if only knew how. It's how life got created under the watch of a god.
I am still in limbo on if my writing this is not good or not. I think it is more intelligent and desire-filled than most things. I'll just say sorry it's not 1st sorted out in my head. And that it seems to go against the beliefs even of very good people put at the stake to decide what to make of me/it.
So, is this homework done or taboo? ;) (I forget why I winked.)
How I Feel
I feel as though things are going better but that I have to look out for thinking I have it too good and messing up. You know?..
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